Tonight is my last sleep over with MA. I want more then he can give at this time. He doesn't know it yet, but I will inform him tomorrow. I just want one last kiss, one last time of feeling the way he makes me feel. One last night of laying in his arms. One last night oh inhaling his intoxicating scent. A full night of complete pleasure and bliss.I have given this a lot of thought. I am scared to death and dreading it, but I really don't feel I have a choice. I haven't been fair to him, holding on the way I have been. I have already wrote the email. So this is it.
I use to get this, and miss it so much it hurts......... "I am so glad to have met you, our friendship it's very rare. Most affairs are about the sex but with us is more than that we have a very close connection that it will never go away. I consider myself the luckiest person in the world. Thank you for coming into my life. Love You forever no matter what".
Now I get this.............. "I hope you are having a good day chat later my Sexy Friend".
I am on my way out the door now. This is it. I know it's what is right, but why does it hurt so bad.
5 comments:
Oh Andy, I know it can't be easy. You are wise though to get out if he can't give you what you want and deserve. Take some time to get to know yourself before you jump into another relationship if you can (and goodness knows I'm not so good at that myself).
Andy ... unfortunately most guys never took the reading between the lines class at school.
If you didn't care it wouldn't hurt.
Be well girl, you'll be OK.
It hurts so much because no matter what you tell your head, your heart is going to be torn. You'll always want one more...kiss, touch, fuck...I wish you better luck in being satisfied with one last everything than I was.
You can do this Andy. You know my history and believe me if you can just keep listening to what your head is telling you and ignore your heart, the pay off will be worth it. Self respect is underrated and believe me if you can get through this you will like yourself a whole lot more. I'm guessing MA will think more highly of you too.
well...how'd it go?
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