It has been 7 days. 7 days without a single touch or kiss. I did it! I sent the dreaded email. He hasn't opened it yet. He has to work early tomorrow morning and probably won't open it until after work. I feel sick to my stomach. I hit send and then went out for a good long walk. It is amazing how that can clear you mind.
Funny thing is I ended up at MH's apartment. We chatted for over an hour. I hope I did the right thing. I think MH is finally moving on. He seems happier. I am happy for him. I am happy he can exsist without me. I knew he could. Now so does he.
If you love something set if free. If it doesn't return it was never meant to be! Now I sit and wait. I really do not have patience. This is not a good thing for me. Breath......
3 comments:
Well done Andy!! I am very proud of you. It won't be easy and you know you will have strong moments and then there will be the times when you will weaken and your resolve will go out the window. When this happens my advice is to remove yourself from temptation until it passes. Go for a walk and don't take the phone, get away from all computers or any form of communication. Take one hour at a time and know that it will get easier. You will like yourself so much more if you can push through the pain and regain your self respect.
You are in my thoughts and I'm sending you a great big hug. I'm feeling your pain just like I do mine every day. It hurts less today than it did yesterday and it will be the same for you.
A brave but necessary step Andy. It's tough to break an addiction but you can and turn out much the better for it.
Be well sweetheart
You know we are all pulling for you.
hugggggggg
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