Friendship often ends in love;but love in friendship - never.
I did it. I found the strength to stay at home last night. I was not tempted by his voice, his promises of pleasure. I was stronger then that addiction.
Unfortunately I can not say that for today. He came down to office to get some work done. He walked into my office. His scent was intoxicating, he walked over to my chair where I was sitting, he bent down and looked into my eyes with those deep dark eyes of his and laid his hands on my shoulders. I melted like butter on a hot day. He reached down pulling me up and tight into his hard body. He pushed me up against the wall and devoured me. The next thing I know I was cumming in his hand, okay so a few times.
It has been 15 days since we decided to end things. I have been through the heart break. I have been through the feeling of rejection. I was just getting used to the fact that we were never meant to be more then good friends. By giving in to that need I am just setting myself up once again for more heartache. What is a girl to do.
When he left the office he told me how badly he wanted me, how he couldn't wait to have my naked body in tangled with his. I found the strength to remind him of what he had told me. How he had personal issues to deal with and he could no longer continue our sexual affair. How he didn't love me, he was lost. He needed time to focus on himself. He didn't want to hurt me anymore, blaaa, blaaaa, blaaa (all of these lines I have used to get out of relationships I didn't want to be in) When I reminded him of these things, he simply said to me "I don't want to think about that this week, you have had a hard week" He made it out like he was doing me the favor.
So here sit, needing, wanting and craving worse then ever. I know what I should do. I know what I shouldn't do. I just don't think I have the strength to say no. The stupidest part of this whole situation I have found myself in is that I don't want to hurt his feelings or hurt him in anyway. That is including his self esteem. If I reject him, how is he going to feel?
HELP ME!!!!!!!! I NEED STRENGTH.
HELP ME!!!!!!!! I NEED STRENGTH.
3 comments:
you have to find that strength deep inside you...its there..I know it is..I saw it. You are such a beautiful woman! You really are...you have a beautiful smile and a great sense of humor. You need to get past worrying how he will feel if you reject him...its not your problem anymore hun. It's his problem. Remember what we talked about..it's very hard or impossible to go back to being friends after being lovers.
Love you, and a BIG BIG Hug1
I just started reading you and I don't feel at all comfortable giving advice yet, but I will say that all relationships have to be mutually enriching and this doesn't sound like it is.
Hugggggggg
Please don't worry about his self esteem. It appears that you have already boosted it enough for him.
He has already told you that he wants to end it. Now he is just playing with your heart and your insecurities. Let him go and take care of yourself.
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