I sent the email. MA received the email, acknowledged the email, and did say he would respond. He never did. Instead he has chose to ignore the fact that I even sent such a thing. He has continued to call and email as always.
He invited me over on Monday, I declined. He invited me over on Tuesday, again I declined. He even pleaded with me, he could not believe I said "NO" this has never happened before. Wednesday he told me how much he missed me, and how badly he wanted me etc... I tried declining, I tried making up excuses. I tried to think of things to make me angry at him so I could just not go. None worked. I went and seen him.
He held me, he kissed every inch of my body, his touch was intoxicating, he drank me in with his eyes. He sent many waves of pleasure through me. We feel asleep wrapped tightly together. I woke up before dawn, I laid there for over an hour watching him sleep. He seemed so a peace. I was angry at myself for not having the strength to stay away. I got up and left without waking him.
I had to work with him yesterday, he told me how much he loved making love to me, how happy he was. How he wanted more, how he just can't get enough. He has called me a few times today telling me how badly he is missing me. He still doesn't get it. I am not asking for a relationship, a marriage proposal, or even a commitment per say. I just want him to love me like he use to.